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:::You can be my dirty little secret:::

Dec. 4th, 2006 | 08:35 pm
mood: confusedconfused
music: Hoobastank

I shouldn't think about him as much as I do.
I have a boyfriend.
Another reason why I'm not good enough for my boyfriend...

or do I just like to pick out things wrong with every relationship I'm in?

Why can't I just be happy where I'm at?

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Nothing I Know Changes Me >>at all>>

Dec. 2nd, 2006 | 12:57 am
mood: restlessrestless
music: Blink-182

I'm not good enough for him.

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((Choking on [my] alibis))

Dec. 1st, 2006 | 11:19 pm
mood: frustratedfrustrated
music: The Killers

I'm tired.
I don't know what I mean.
I don't know what I feel.
I don't know what I'm saying.

WTF is going on?!

I miss my bestfriend.

She has her lovely new bf, new school, new job, new life. I doubt I even come to her mind anymore.

Trying to please everyone just makes me seem like I don't care about anyone.

Damnit, I hate this.

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Sleeping is giving in [No matter what the time is]

Oct. 17th, 2006 | 09:11 pm
mood: aggravatedaggravated
music: The Arcade Fire


Sleeping is giving in,
So lift those heavy eyelids.


I fucking HATE yelling.
Every day when I come home from school.
I'm so sick of it.




I wish I'd quit gettin mixed signals from him.
I'm going CRAZY.

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Give 'Em Hell Kid

Oct. 16th, 2006 | 04:03 am
mood: indifferentindifferent
music: My Chemical Romance


Life is:

Okay.



I like helping others with their problems.

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[with pretty eyed boys girls die to trust]

Sep. 9th, 2006 | 04:23 pm
mood: confusedconfused
music: Venessa Carlton

what to do, what to say?

Admitting it to him means admitting it to myself...



nope.

not happening.



The stress of everything is killing me.

I wish she would move out. It's so stupid that she's still here, there isn't any
point to it and I'm sick of her. She's not the person I use to know.

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Fear is the heart of love; So I never went back

Sep. 9th, 2006 | 12:52 am
mood: tiredtired
music: Death Cab For Cutie

His phone calls make me smile.

I'm always disappointed when I don't hear from him.



All worn down
the time for sleep is now
its nothing to cry about

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but now you’re gonna have to shut your mouth or fight me!

Aug. 31st, 2006 | 11:19 pm
mood: irritatedirritated
music: The Dresden Dolls

Don't fucking tell me "I don't know" you obviously know something, if you want to talk about it talk about it, if you don't then don't. Just don't beat around the stupid bush.

Patience is a virture (that I am currently lacking).


And I was having such a good day too...

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I never loved nobody fully [always one foot on the ground]

Aug. 31st, 2006 | 02:31 am
mood: cheerfulcheerful
music: Regina Spektor



I never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
all these voices
I hear in my mind
all these words
I hear in mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart...

suppose I never ever met you
suppose we never fell in love
suppose I never ever let you
kiss me so sweet and so soft
suppose I never ever saw you
suppose you never ever called
suppose I kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall

just to break my fall...

all my friends say
that of course it's
gonna get better...

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How do you measure a year in the life?

Aug. 28th, 2006 | 03:00 am
mood: indescribableindescribable
music: Rent Soundtrack

I love sad movies with happy endings. The kind where after you've watched it, you have this heavy sadness in the pit of your chest, but somehow, there is also this feeling of happiness.

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